Protected: The Ultimate Catharsis

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Hay!

I just want to have the exam now. Not that Im really excited or ready to take the exam, I am just bored with what’s going on with my life this time. Hay!

Protected: Walk and Never Look Back

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FOCUS. FOCUS. FOCUS.

I was doing well reviewing all by myself for the board exam until my sister decided to come back home. Ever since she came I stopped reading my books, I stopped writing simplified essays and diagrams of pathophysiologies of different diseases (which I used to enjoy), I even lost the urge to stay up late. Before, I had all the house to myself whenever my father leaves to work and I had everything scheduled accordingly, I can watch the cartoons in the morning, rinse the clothes while cooking then study a little until four o’clock, watch the television, cook dinner, then review until one in the morning. HAY.

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I am really keeping my fingers crossed. The days are passing and I just couldn’t focus anymore. I am feeling more and more apprehensive, HECK, I even suspect that I curently have a Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I started feeling this way last year during the start of my first semester as a senior nursing student- decreased concentration, disturbed sleeps, muscle tensions, and at least 6 months excessive worry and apprehension.

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I initially planned to take the board last June but since I was not able to do so the anxiety was somewhat extended and magnified. And I am starting to panic. Just recently my sleeps were disrupted by dreams of the weirdest kind. They are not nightmares naman but I hate it when I wake me up in the wee hours because the moment I wake up I wouldn’t be able to sleep again. Just last night I dreamed that I am a superhero or something, I was not exactly saving anyone, I was just running as a group of Archery students lined up at the sidewalk take turns shooting arrows of burning incense sticks at my butt as i pass them.

Kanashimi wo Yasashisa Ni, The Man Who Can’t Be Moved, Cold Shoulder, Be the one

Note: I am not sure if the title of the first song is Kanashiwa wo Yasashisa Ni or Hearts Grow.