T’GSH

Writing this blog helped me a lot to cope with stress , though I really couldn’t say everything. Sometimes I just post screams as a form of catharsis and whatever burdens me inside miraculously vanishes and I’m back on track again. One thing that I really like about blogging is that I stop thinking about my problem the moment I click the publish button on my screen. Even the mere pleasure of reading other people’s blog has in some degree helped me in combating anxiety.

However, I find it harder now to ease my self just by writing. I mean it doesn’t work for me anymore.

CHANGE TOPIC

This morning, in a bus, I met an old classmate from Grade School. She was on her way for a job interview. We talked for a moment about some stuff until the subject change to my Board Exam Review. A guy who was sitting in front of her seat overheard us and joined our conversation. It didn’t take long until he was already talking about his own board examination. He just recently passed the December 2007 board exam. He started giving tips and inspiring words, then he said, “Kung gusto mo puntahan mo ko sa bahay ko, ” he gave me his address and told me that I can borrow his books gusto raw naman nya kasi akong pumasa talaga. Though we came from the same university it was the first time that I actually met him, I haven’t seen him in my four years of stay in college (kahit isang beses), so I observed his gestures if he was lying. He was constantly looking at his left side… in Psychology the Left and the Front sides of the head are the seat of logic, therefore there is a big chance that he was telling the truth (the Right and the back sides are the seat of imagination, therefore a person who is making up a story will probably look at his right side or nod his head backward).

I was already praying a thank you prayer to God for sending me this person. I was like, “Jesus,” I am more comfortable in calling God Jesus, “Did you send this guy to prove me that you won’t let go of me?” Hanep! So I asked him, “May book ka ba ng Pediatrics, wala kasi ako nun?” Then he was like, “yun na nga eh, marami kasi akong kaklase dati ang di nakapasa. Eh alam nila self-review lang ako. So marami ng nakapila sa books ko baka swerte daw.” That’s when I realized that this guy doesn’t really care if I pass or not. He just wanted to brag. I looked at his shirt, may logo ng UP tapos nakaprint, UP Tangway, an organization of Bataaenios in UP Diliman. Sa UP siguro sya nagtapos nung unang course nya… second courser kasi sya at kahit ilang taon na ang lumipas hindi pa ring sya makamove on.

XET TALAGA! Lumaki tuloy yung butas ng ilong ko. Hay ang daming mayabang sa mundo. Kaasar.